I am not a great Yogi. Well, honestly I am not great neither Yogi. I am too lazy to be a Yogi; being very honest about it and not ashamed either. Not all can be great and not all can be Yogi’s.
So what would I call myself? A good question. I have always wondered that myself, over many years. A few friends did give me some titles like ‘Funky Guru’ and ‘Under Cover Boss’. However the latest that has stuck with me is ‘Spiritual Geek’. It somehow describes me, at least in essence, if not so much in detail.
I one thing I am, that is for sure, not a bore. I am restless. I like to observe things. On observation, I like to deduce inferences. From these inferences, I like to learn. Make my understanding of this mega world a little simple. However, more I try to make it simple, more it gets complicated. I guess that also is a learning process.
In my pursuit, I followed, I mean it, I followed, not tried to follow, but followed, a few people and guess what? All had beautifully presented the mystery of the life. No one had presented the answers. In the, end I came out feeling as if I was reading the same stuff in different words all over again. Questions asked. So beautifully, that for a moment, I was overwhelmed, gees, life can be so complex. How insignificant and ignorant I was. More I felt that way, more I felt miserable.
Something was not right. This is not how I am supposed to feel. What happened to all that joy and happiness? Where is it? Does it even exist? If it does, why nobody is talking about it?
One thing I knew for sure and that was, when babies can be happy, it ought to be simple. You see babies don’t like to put in so much of effort in anything. They keep life simple. When they are happy, they laugh, they smile, they sing, when they are hungry or in pain, they cry. When tired, they sleep. They can’t be bothered with what is happening in the rest of the world. I think babies also talk to GOD.
So, learning from babies, I decided to teach myself something. It had to be something that can be simply done. No skills required, not too much of thinking or anticipating or anything. Just do it sort of thing. After much investigation, I found ONE thing that fit the bill. It was a Yoga asana, called ‘Savasana’. Brilliant! You just lie down, do nothing. Sounded pretty simple.
Guess what? It is not. You don’t believe me? Try it yourself. The apparently most simple of Yoga asana, is indeed one of the most difficult to perform, lest master it. You are expected to do ‘nothing’. Try doing nothing. No movement, no feeling, no itching, no thinking … hell that is difficult. The only thing you may do is observe your breath. Just observe not even control it. Simply observing it, without a thought, without even measuring.
Well my entire journey is so full of such comical incidents that I can go on for ever, however, for now, let me conclude one thing. After all the adventures and experiments and trials, one thing I have learned, that I have learned nothing. I know nothing. I am just a simple guy. I can’t even do ‘nothing’. This makes me admire the great masters even more as they have achieved so much in their life time. I appreciate their greatness more than ever before. Only to surrender to their wisdom and the wisdom of the Universe, to go with the flow, shapeless, formless, without resisting it, is true joy, true happiness and true purpose of life.